So I have been wanting to write this post for a while….or maybe several months and have held off for several reasons until now.
I am not sure why now seems to be the right time but it does certainly feel like the right time. So here we go…
I have been absent from my blog for almost two years, actually 21.5 months, but who’s counting right? And it has been totally intentional on my part. And I haven’t picked up my DSLR camera in about that long as well which again, has been completely intentional.
2016 was a rough year for me in almost all aspects of my life and things came to a head that summer. I was facing a very difficult time in my marriage and we weren’t sure where we were going to end up. For anyone who knows me, I don’t do well with things being outside of my control and found myself in an emotional and physical space that was the opposite of where I wanted to be. So after a lot of discussion with my husband and a couple of good friends and my parents and soul searching, I knew I needed to make some changes. And most importantly, I needed to shift my priorities. The people that I love the most were being made to feel inferior to a “business venture” that was mostly an expensive hobby. And this expensive hobby was causing me to feel insecure, competitive (not the good kind) and just a little crazy at times. I was no longer having fun with it. So I quit, just like that, cold turkey. And I never looked back, that was, until now.
Part of the issues I was having was my health, emotional and physical. I was at my heaviest weight, even counting when I was pregnant, my eating habits were awful and I couldn’t sleep enough or was sleeping too much. I was miserable most days and feeling completely stressed and overwhelmed. Something needed to change and soon.
I started with buying myself a Fitbit and trying to be more active during the day by taking walks in the mall (where I work) at lunch time. That lead to me cutting out pop from my daily diet. This was difficult. At that time, I was up to 2-3 cans of Coke a day which is horrible. It took me three times to actually kick it for good. I tried hot yoga and didn’t even make it through 30 minutes without giving up.
Again, anyone who knows me, knows that I am not allowed to join a gym again because it is a total waste of money because I NEVER go, because I HATE it. I have tried Crossfit, several times over, circuit training, women’s only gyms, bootcamp style programs, personal training and I have never stuck with them for more than one month. So I continued with hot yoga which continued to get better and better and enjoyed more with each class and continued to look for a non-gym solutions to working out.
There were many hours spent on Pinterest (looking for this solution) and around the same time I was seeing these cute colour coded portion containers, I was seeing one of my acquaintances on Facebook saying some pretty amazing motivational stuff and looking happy and the healthiest I had ever seen her. This piqued my interest and over time and several conversations later, this acquaintance of mine finally sold me my first challenge pack for 21 Day Fix. That was in November 2016.
All aspects of my health and living a balanced lifestyle have become my priority. Both are very much a work in progress, but I am much better off now then I was when I first started. I am at my healthiest now and have a good grasp on my priorities and working towards further improving my personal relationships and my relationship with myself.
If you have made it this far, thank you for sticking with me. You may be asking what all this has to do with my former expensive hobby…well I am not entirely sure of what it means for my photography yet but that I am now starting to regain interest in the art form and trying to figure what that means to my family and my coaching and accountability business.
You will see some changes to not only the aesthetic of the blog but also the content and type of photos I am shooting personally and professionally. I encourage you to stick around, it’s going to be lots of fun with surely some surprises along the way.
A sincere thank you for reading and being here.